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What my game is going to be like

I just got out of bed after not being able to sleep for two hours, my mind racing with thoughts.

Then Puberty Happened

I guess it all started when I was 11, playing my first game that started to consume a lot of time, Maplestory. A friend got me into the game and we would play and grind together, usually at his place. At this age my life was still largely controlled by my parents who wanted me to explore life and experience as much as possible, luckily they also had the funds for it.

I was playing field hockey, football, tennis, the piano and occasionally joined my father for a game of golf. Most of the sports or other things I did I was considered pretty good at and I would end up in the highest teams of the respective sport clubs. I never was a social outcast either, I had a lot of friends and could easily make contact with everyone.

All sounds pretty promising, right? The Beginning of the End I live in the Netherlands, so at age 13 you move from primary school to high school which will take six years from that point if you do the highest level, which I did.

The first few years of high school were relatively normal; I had friends who I got along with, my grades were relatively high, and I got pretty close to having my first girlfriend which I stopped pursuing after my parents laughed at me when I brought it up. Those were the first things I started giving up in order to play more games, the games I loved so much because they would constantly challenge me mentally.

  • In 2013, Microsoft launched its latest console, the Xbox One;
  • The only thing that saved me from getting bullied was having friends from the first grades, and the quick wit I had to defend myself verbally;
  • The beginning of the end;
  • Real life is the game that — literally — everyone is playing;
  • The word "addiction" gets used a lot to describe a certain kind of focused attention on media and technology;
  • On average, he found, young men without degrees had four more hours of leisure time every week in 2015 than they did in 2000.

Fast forward to the 3rd year of high school, a friend introduces the game League of Legends to me. The beginning of the end. This was also around the same time I started to really hit puberty. Playing League of Legends was the world to me.

  • Consider looking for a job, or getting some training in new skills;
  • Every single thing you do affects your state and your skills;
  • I want to quit;
  • It allowed me to do something competitively with friends, constantly get better at something, and being able to show that I was better;
  • The only thing I can probably do is pass my next exams with very high grades and come back home begging for mercy, but I only notice myself playing more and more, not being able to stop;
  • I kept playing and playing, and my grades kept dropping and dropping.

It allowed me to do something competitively with friends, constantly get better at something, and being able to show that I was better. It was the fun I got out of playing sports, but permanently, without physical exhaustion. I quickly got very good at the game which in turn made me play it more and more.

The more I played though, the more things around me would suffer. I chose to quit playing hockey, because it would allow me more time to play, I would stop playing golf with my father, because it would allow me more time to play, and I stopped doing any work for school, because it would give me more time to play.

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All I cared about was that game and getting better at it. I also stopped caring about my appearance, as the only thing that mattered was this game and how I ranked up in it. Then Puberty Happened My puberty kicked in full force, I got braces and as cherry on top I also stopped growing as fast as the other guys in my class. The only thing that saved me from getting bullied was having friends from the first grades, and the quick wit I had to defend myself verbally.

Both my self esteem and my grades sunk. I kept playing and playing, and my grades kept dropping and dropping. The panic started to kick in for my parents. This lead to a lot, a LOT of fights. On one hand my parents saw that I enjoyed gaming but on the other hand they saw everything else get worse and worse.

I have been sent to an after-school organization that forces you to do your homework, which I dodged by always playing the friendly, down-to-earth kid, while straight up lying to their faces about the homework. Even though I never wanted to admit that I had also read the articles about people dropping out of school and never making it. This ever clenching feeling has been going on to this day. Should You Pursue Pro Gaming? I finished my high school in six years, barely, and then started university studying Law.

I lived at home for the first year of uni and I managed to pass all my exams because my parents forced me to study and would straight up ban me from playing.

They would say I smelled, ridicule me for playing, and call me a junk every time. My little brother and sister would happily chime in. Everything I wanted to say or suggest would be angrily shot down while making a lot more nasty comments.

I felt like a stranger what my game is going to be like my own home.

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I had no self-esteem, I played all day but when I finally started to rank up really high and get approached by bigger teams my parents would ban me completely and I would get worse again. This also lead to very little experience with girls. Because of this, my parents decided that I should live in the town I studied in, and so I did.

  • On one hand my parents saw that I enjoyed gaming but on the other hand they saw everything else get worse and worse;
  • The only thing that saved me from getting bullied was having friends from the first grades, and the quick wit I had to defend myself verbally;
  • It is exactly the life his 12-year-old would find ideal, Hurst notes;
  • The statements come as PlayStation 4 holds tightly onto a major lead in console sales.

I joined a social club and started a new life there, on my own. At first things were looking really good. I was getting into social situations, lived on my own, and slowly started to look after myself better and better. There was a big danger though, because my parents no longer supervised me my gaming shot up to a new level.

Could my kid be addicted to video games?

I played and played whenever I could, and I stopped going to my lectures and seminars altogether. I put my time into this game every waking hour and I stopped studying at all. I have been ignoring university this whole time, while my parents paid for everything, only doing so because I lied about passing my exams. My life is a mess. Recently they found out about my lying behaviour and have told me they will stop paying for anything for me ever.

This has forced me to only play more and more to escape the reality of all this and I feel like there is no way out. The only thing I can probably do is pass my next exams with very high grades and come back home begging for mercy, but I only notice myself playing more and more, not being able to stop.

Gaming has made me into someone with very low self esteem, no ambitions, and no dreams. I want to quit. I am done ruining my potential, ruining how I feel about myself, even if it costs me the biggest passion and dream I have ever had, even if nothing will what my game is going to be like fill its void.

I have deleted League of Legends but I am afraid my attention span, and probably botched dopamine reward system will just make me relapse. Is there anyone that can help me?

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